Will you be my valentine?

I love holidays.  All of them.  I love little traditions we are creating with our family.  Fun stuff.  This year, Jonathan had to make a box to take to school to collect his little valentines from his friends.  Of course, I consulted Pinterest (any statement that starts there is dangerous!) and Jonathan decided he needed a monster box.  So, a monster box we made.  It was so much fun!  Jacob made one too to have at home.  I love creative projects with my boys.  :-) 

The night before Valentines Day, I made a sweet little mobile to surprise the boys - it was hanging down from their door frame and surprised them in the morning.  They seemed to like it.  :-)  Joshua also had some hearts on his door too with reminders of our love and God's love for him. 

I was so glad to get to go to Jonathan's little party at school and Daddy got to go to Jacob's.  I'm so glad we are flexible and available to do these things.  I wouldn't miss it for a second. 

And finally, let's talk about  my sweet Valentine.  So glad he gets to "be mine" forever and ever.  I am blessed.  I love you honey! 

Time is just moving too fast!

Can't believe Joshua is already 4 months old.  Actually, he's almost 4 month and a week old.  Here's some things about this age that I just love.  I'd forgotten how sweet this age is.  I LOVE it!!! 

He's becoming so interactive.  I love the fact that I walk in a room and he immediately finds me and follows me.  He smiles like crazy.  He is starting to beat his hands on anything around him. He also folds his hands together a lot - looks like he's praying.  He does it every time he eats.  So sweet.  He kicks his feet and laughs at his toes.  Really - it's so cute!  Especially if he has some type of animals on the feet of his jammies.  He is so happy and so content.  He slobbers a lot and likes to suck on his fingers.  He's trying to be a thumb sucker, but sometimes misses and its really cute to watch him try to stick his thumb in his mouth.  It looks like his whole face is hiding though because he doesn't make a fist, he has all his fingers straight out.  Oh his smile - would melt anyone's heart!  Love love love that gummy sweet grin.  He loves his brothers so very very much.  Jonathan loves to hold him, but will quickly say, "I'm done."  :-)  Jacob loves to talk to him and it's very very sweet.  He's much more interested than I ever thought he would be. 

At his four month check up, he weighed 14 lbs 14 oz and was 25" long.  (50th and 75th percentiles respectfully.)  He hasn't fully recovered from the RSV episode.  He continues to have a nagging cough and is congested.  Is that just the way it'll always be for him??? I sure hope not.  He is a great sleeper.  He goes to sleep completely on his own, without rocking!, at about 8 or 8:15.  He sleeps until 7 or 7:30.  YAY!!!  Occasionally, he wakes up at 5:30 and I change his diaper and he goes right back to sleep.  He hates to be wet.  :-)  Sometimes, we have to go put his paci in to settle him, but overall, he is an awesome sleeper.  He is taking two decent naps a day (about 9:30 and 1:00) and a catnap sometime in the evening between 4:30 and 6.  He eats like a little hoover.  hee hee.  He's eating 5 times a day -  6-7 ounces each time.  Sometimes, with his congestion and all the snot, he throws up.  It is scary and I don't like it one little bit.  That has gotten better too, the more distance we get from the RSV episode. 

Oh sweet Joshua, I can't imagine life without you.  You are soooo easy and sooo good. Everywhere we go, people say, "is he always that good?"  Yes, yes you are.  You are a total go with the flow little dude and so flexible.   You add life and energy to our family and we love everything about you.  I pray that you will understand the deep love of Jesus and will surrender your whole heart and life to Him.  XOXOXO

RSV (really... sucky...virus!)

Welp, we've had quite the couple of days here.  Several "firsts" for our little family.  Not firsts I'd like to repeat, mind you.  For starters, Joshua had his first sick visit to the pediatrician on Friday.  He was pitiful - coughing, choking, feverish and wouldn't eat.  Y'all - he's serious about his milkies, so I knew he wasn't feeling well.  He was diagnosed with RSV (i know the technical name, but to us, it will always be known as the really sucky virus...explanation later.)  That night, as was expected, we had a rough night.  The first time actually in a long while that baby boy hasn't slept through the night.  Saturday was actually a pretty good day.  He still felt crummy, but was mostly comfortable and rested okay.  Saturday night though... another story.  For the first time in his little life, he flat out projectile vomited several times after eating.  Scary stuff. And.he.did.not.sleep (at all) Saturday night, hence, neither did we... Sunday was even worse.  Nothing really helped him feel better - he just wasn't comfortable unless we were literally standing up holding him.  His breathing was labored.  He looked sad and worried.  It was pitiful.  He perked up a little during the afternoon, but by evening, his breathing was even worse.  I knew the warning signs, but my mommy intuition was just confused.  See, our pediatrician told us on Friday that he was 99% certain Joshua would get through this without hospitalization.  Here's what we were told to look for that would indicate a need for hospitalization:  breathing more than 60 breaths per minute (Joshua was breathing about 65 or so) and oxygen levels at or below 94 (Joshua's were at 94 or 93).  Also, we were supposed to look for retraction at the ribs during breathing.  Well, he was doing a little of all these things, but no so severe that I just knew he need to go in...  Our friend Sherry, who is a nurse and awesome momma, came over to take a look and she said he was "just on the fringe."  Well, several hours later, and after a call from our pediatrician, we took our first trip to the ER - for Joshua anyway.  We've been there once with Jonathan.  We went to Kosair at Brownsboro Road... awesome facility by the way.  Joshua got some tests run, chest x-rays and the suction.  OH THE SUCTION.  (That's why we will always call RSV the really SUCKY virus).  You will understand if you've ever seen or heard anyone have to get "deep suction" done.  Y'all - we had to leave the room - went way down the hall and we could still hear the awful suction sound and the screaming was almost more than I could bear.  Seriously - if (I pray no one ever has to experience this!) your child ever needs deep suctioning - RUN out of the room as fast as you can!! Anyway, even with oxygen, he was unable to keep his oxygen levels to an acceptable level, so we were told he'd need to be admitted.  So, we took our first ever ambulance ride to the downtown Kosair Hospital.  My little man was all hooked up on the stretcher and I about lost it.  I rode with him and Billy followed close behind the ambulance.  By this point, it was about 2 or 3 in the morning and Joshua was still awake.  Despite all the trauma, he was still smiling.  My precious precious little guy.  So sweet.  So, we got to Kosair and into our room and finally got settled at about 3:30 am.  When we got there, the deep suction had to happen again.  And again.  And again.  Oh my word y'all - awful.  But I know it helped him so much.  Gross, I know, but you should have seen the gunk they got out of him.  Poor baby.  He got oxygen through the night and up into the day on Monday.  He began to make some progress and decided the oxygen tube was just so NOT cool, so he helped take it out of his nose.  :-)  The nurse was willing to let him try without it, and he did well.  He still had to be suctioned a bunch of times that day.  The criteria for going home was 12 hours with no oxygen and 12 hours with no deep suctioning.  So, we were hopeful to go home the next day and thankfully, we did. 

All in all, it was only about 40 hours.  But it was a sleepless 40 hours and so scary.  I knew he was "okay" but it was still scary and sad.  I am so thankful for our amazing family and friends for the visits, the snacks, phone calls and prayers.  We are blessed beyond measure.  Glad to be back home, semi back to normal.  I missed my big boys!  Joshua is still sick, but so so so so so much better.  He is eating better , but gets choked really easily when eating now.  So it's still scary, but his breathing is back to normal and he is back to his smiling, sweet self.